You asked me recently why I maintain that I am afraid of you. As usual, I was unable to think of any answer to your question, partly for the very reason that I am afraid of you, and partly because an explanation of the grounds for this fear would mean going into far more details than I could even approximately keep in mind while talking.”
Franz Kafka, one of the most intellectual writers of 20th century writes these lines to his father in a letter. Yesterday was going through some of his creations and stopped by these lines. The relationship between a father and his son can be of many kinds; the strict one, the affectionate one, the helpless one and the friendly one. I’m, may be, the mixture of all of them.
There are so many things left unsaid in our lives. Many of us can’t show our affection towards our children. But I really think, it is necessary to say kind words, hold their hands, and caress their head just to show we do care. Today, I just became conscious of these feelings. Mishuk my son is coming home after two and a half months.
The day he comes home, his face glows with joy. One thing I notice, whenever I gift him something he smiles, but he becomes super excited when I say, I’m going to be with him for the next couple of hours. The best gift you can give to your children is your consistent presence. I feel sorry for not being there with him all the time. Every time he comes, I make plans, schedule days to spend most of the time with him. But somehow, I could not make it for my previous commitments towards work. In the last moment, when I cancel plans he doesn’t say anything but looks shattered. He has grown up to learn how to hide feelings. But when I sit to talk to him, he just goes on. He has so much to say, to ask, to share with me. The bubbles of enthusiasm keep bursting.
This time, I have a long list of plans for him. After consecutive shooting for two films back to back, I have few days in my hands to spend with my family. Thinking to cook for him his favourite Chinese dish. Can’t wait to see his face after I make the official announcement of this! Haha!
One of my friends was telling, the concept of Father’s Day has been conceived by Archies; a special day to celebrate fatherhood. Well, we just need an occasion to celebrate, we are in search of excuses to make merry. Nothing harmful is in that. But I think the true worth of fatherhood can only be fathomed when a person becomes father himself. It is just as easy as difficult! Anyway, this time I’m going to walk the talk. Looking forward to have some fun time with Mishuk.
Love to all! God bless!