It is amazing that every year we make new resolutions, set new goals, try to learn from old mistakes, remove all negativities; in short, we want to become a better person than the last year. But what exactly happens when the New Year becomes a little old? We tend to forget our resolutions one by one. Dealing with new set of challenges, another new year comes. The reason may be we keep our old wounds open from the situations that are no longer matter, we regret for things we can’t change, we drag our negativities years after years.
Mishuk came to me and asked inquisitively what my New Year resolution is. For him, when there is New Year, there must be a few resolutions. I told him, not to wait for the New Year to make resolutions. Whenever you feel you need to promise something to yourself, it does not really need any special occasion and when you are done with making your resolutions, try not to forget them. So, this year my resolution is keeping the old promises I made to myself and not to regret about anything. And the NYE plan? Well, just a small homely party with few friends where me and Mishuk will bake a cake for the guests. I know, this is going to be a big ‘Lorai’ for us! But we are very excited about it. Otherwise, this food department is totally taken care of by Arpita!
With the approach of the New Year, pre production works of Goutam Ghose’s Shankhachil has been started. After “Moner Manush”, this is going to be another very important project. Goutam da has a keen eye to every detail. The emotion he pours into the subject reflects. I feel, one just cannot play the character in his films until they live with it. While shooting “Moner Manush”, I separated myself from my family and the rest of the world to live like Lalan. It was very important to touch his (Lalan) soul, the bohemian genius!
My character in “Shankhachil” is something challenging which is encouraging me to push my boundaries. Most of the time I rehearse alone though Goutam da is there helping me to understand the character better. Without being engrossed in the character, one cannot understand and feel what more can be put into it to make it an object of flesh and blood. My team along with Goutam Da’s creative team is taking care of the production design and script. They are doing an extremely good job. Costume designing is being done by Neelanjana boudi herself.
Sometimes, I feel very fortunate to look back on my journey. I got to play so many different roles which are poles apart from one another. May be, this wonderful journey of discovering and reinventing ourselves called life. Love you and God bless.